L'OSPITE - 2011 / Ongoing
Ospite s. m. e f. [dal lat. hospes -pitis (with both of the sign. fundamental, because the word was referring especially to the reciprocal duties of hospitality)].
I am open / closed. There is within me an aperture visible / invisible through which passes an unceasing flow of strangeness that accumulates and opposes. The strangeness of my new identity has touched me deeply. I am a photographer and at the same time chronically ill from 2004. These two realities move and live in a parallel way, sometimes intersecting between them.
The July 31, 2011 I took my first self-portrait, and for the first time I found myself in in two different spaces, in front and behind the camera, not just photographs but also the subject and then a spectator of my own shots and this triple role has made it which could come out a strong and deep creative process. July 27, 2012 arrived "the host".
They open and close me, and the language changes, because there is a body where lives a new organ, the kidney of another person. So I start to wonder: "What is a body? How has changed it, what I feel? How can I ‘m alive if the life of my body is in the hands of another? I still do these questions. Now I have two system, two sets, two immune identity.
I am the other and the other is in me, in this radical and undecidable fracture. L’ Ospite continues in his coming, his intrusion does not cease. It fits, it becomes part of my body. The "disease" has become the cure. I am my illness. Talking about the experience of my kidney transplant, I wonder about the transformations that the categories of identity and strangeness undergo when a body comes into contact with another system. And life and death, separated now by a very thin wall, continually incurs one into the ground of the other.